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CHRONICLES OF A GOD GIRL: MASTERS EDITION 1

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So, you started this series months ago on Instagram, but this morning, something shifted. You woke up feeling that this space, your blog, needed you. Blogging has always been your first love; you can never outgrow it. So here you are, dusting off the keyboard, ready to spill. Letā€™s talk about this season of your life: the season where you decided to add ā€œDr.ā€ to your name. But first, a masterā€™s degree. You chose a private university in Nigeria, paid the fees yourselfā€”because, girl, at this point, you are nobodyā€™s mate. You are even the first in your immediate family to attempt a Masters degree, nobody should play with you. Then came the reality: seminars, literary texts to critique, and endless papers. And you paused. ā€œIs this doctorate dream even possible like this?ā€ But you never start what you canā€™t finish. So you keep going. First semester exams? Done. It wasnā€™t easyā€”juggling exams, your writing job, and a 9-5 almost took you out, but youā€™re still standing. Now, letā€™s get into...

SINGLE TO STUPOR!

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Itā€™s about an hour and some minutes to my birthday anniversary as I write this post. Well, I know itā€™s been a while I posted anything here, but then the whole birthday euphoria brought me here today. Donā€™t worry, Iā€™ll start a new series soon. The past one year of my life has been awesome. So many testimonies and Iā€™ll share some; 1. I had massive career advancement this past year. 2. Something my family had been praying about for years finally happened this year. (Details would come when Iā€™m sharing my complete success story. šŸ˜‰) 3. I published my first book this year. This news is hoooogeee. Here is the link to buy, if you havenā€™t;  https://selar.co/fqt7 Daddy God did many things, but let me leave it there. Now, to the next thing I want to discuss, Iā€™m still celebrating this birthday as a single sister. Ehn? Whatā€™s the big deal? Why are you looking at me like Iā€™m strange? Let me now even tell you the interesting part, next year birthday, I shall not be single. You donā€™t believe me?...

JOURNALINGšŸ“’šŸ–Š

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Why do People Keep Journals? Well, Iā€™ll speak for myself. Journaling for me is about penning down God-given ideas, interesting thoughts that I might want to explore later. I also like to keep good memories, so I write about persons I have met that have contributed to my life or interesting events, places Iā€™ve been to. In all, journaling helps me see that God has a track record of doing good and good only. I started journaling when I was maybe 12 or 13 years old. I remember vividly the events that happened. My mom had just scolded me (you know African Motherā€™s kinda scold, slap would have landed on your face before you say ā€˜Jack Robinsonā€™) and I seriously felt like I was being punished unjustly. Unfortunately, I could not fight for my ā€˜rightā€™, so I took a notepad and just expressed myself. I wrote about how I would one day leave and not return, then they would all miss me in the house and wish they treated me better. Such childish illusions!šŸ˜‚ Here are Some Advantages of Journaling ...

EBIERE 12

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  ā€œHello, beautiful sister, welcome to church. This must be your first time, I have never seen your face before.ā€ A pretty young lady said to me, all in one breath with a very large and infectious smile on her face. ā€œHi, I replied smiling back ā€œI attended your Christmas service, but this is my first Sunday service.ā€ ā€œOh! Interestingā€. Idehen was such a vibrant young woman and she seemed so full of life that I couldnā€™t help but envy her. That was how a friendship that was to alter the course of my life began. Idehen, a young lady of 25 had just completed her Masters degree in Japan. She moved back to Nigeria a month before we met. She came to see me the following week and mehn! She was so easy to talk to. I shared all my ā€˜dark secretsā€™ with her without fear.  Before she left, she gave me a book titled ā€œThe Prodigal Fatherā€ authored by a certain Rev. Craig Omorotionmwan. I was confused, I had heard of the prodigal son, but never of the prodigal father but Idehen promised that it...

EBIERE 11

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"Ebeire, I know that you do drugs, no matter how much you try to hide it from me." I just kept staring at mama with absolutely no words to reply. The look in her eyes was really serious. "I will tell you a story. The story is about your birth, the circumstances surrounding your birth." I suddenly felt uncomfortable sitting on the wooden joko. Whatever   mama was going to say must be serious. "I was pregnant six times before your pregnancy, they all ended up as miscarriages. When the seventh pregnancy finally stayed, the scan confirmed I was going to have twins, beautiful girls. Unfortunately, five months into the pregnancy, your twin sister died in my womb and started to decay." "What!" I was shocked, no one has ever mentioned this to me. She continued calmly as if she had not been interrupted; "The doctor said they had to carry out an operation to take out both babies so that my health would not be affected. I told the doctor th...

EBIERE 10

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Wawu! It's a new year already and things are moving so fast. I have been feeling very weak since December last year. I sleep tired and wake up even more tired. Yeah! You don't have to tell me, I should visit the hospital but where's the money? Hospital bills are something else you know. I started this new church in my neighbourhood. I am really trying to make things work this year. I feel a lot of guilt. I have been wasting my years. I'm aging so fast. The pastor of the church likes to make a statement; " God is not angry with you. " I'm not sure I believe that. God must detest me. Some people were pushed by the experiences of life and they became monsters. My case is different, my parents brought me up well. Ebiere choose this path, Ebiere groomed a monster, Ebiere has begun to suffer the consequences. I have only attended two services in the strange church that believes God isn't angry. I love how they welcomed me on the first day, so I...

EBIERE 9

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"Mummy, it's been months since you came to see us. Grandma said you took ill. Are you fine now?" My daughter's tiny voice enquired over the phone. It took a while before I replied, as I didn't even know what to say. "I am fine Imade dear. Sorry that I have not visited. I will come as soon as I can." This scar has to heal up before I visit them. "Okay, bye mum. Grandmum must not catch me using her phone." "Bye." I smiled as I hung up. The act itself (smiling) was painful as I had almost forgotten how to smile. Poor child! She deserved a better mum, not an irresponsible one like me.  Ebiere, what happened to you? Why did you lose yourself? What happened to the church girl? What happened to the dreams? Why did you let papa and mama down? Will you ever make it out of this depth of chaos? Nonye had apologised to me the day after the quarrel but the words still sting. People say the truth hurts, I guess that's it. I need to ...